I suck

as of last night i have been feeling like crap, I have HORRIBLE cramps like someone is kicking me in the stomach, i feel faint, and sick, i am all shakey, and emotionally i can't stay still for 2 seconds, but i feel like such a bitch and an idiot. It is only day 3 of lectures, and i am going to have to miss a day, which is stressing me out, and i am missing ANOTHER tutor meeting, which is like the third this term already, she must be so pissed off at me. And the other thing is, everyone looks at you like some fucking cripple when you are ill, and i hate that shit, i feel bad enough as it is, and right now i just want to cry and make it all go away.